Praising God as I type, from HOME!

Thank you all for continuing to lift us up.

Praising God as I type, from HOME!

*****To those who didn't know...We went to our weekly appointment this morning at 11am. I was very uncomfortable all morning and had only gotten worse w/ the car ride. I inhaled a yogurt on the ride so I am sure that didn't help. As I approached the window to sign in it must have been obvious the discomfort that I was feeling so the nurse said they'd get me back as soon as possible.

Of course the waiting room was sorta full of the "happy" expecting mommies w/ their hubbies and grammies waiting for ultrasound...and the mom w/ her newly born baby girl (I do so much better seeing baby boys these days).

Again, so obvious by my facial expression the pain that I was feeling...the new mom mentioned the way I looked...then preceded to ask when I was due. I told her 5 weeks but am scheduled to deliver in 3 because Eva is lying sideways and not head down. Then I proceeded to say that we were facing even more complications than just her position and advised of the T18 diagnosis.

I tell everybody. Maybe I shouldn't but I do. I want people to realize how blessed they are to have healthy babies. To realize that we don't always get blessed w/ what we ask for nor does our plan always pan out the way we would want it to or expect it. I don't want to scare people by no means but want them to value life...every life...no matter what!

In the quick 3-minute conversation I managed to advise her how the medical staff (who she was about to see just as I was) advised me that most people terminate and that carrying to term was not the most popular decision. She was shocked. I told her, as I tell everyone, that it was not my call to be the reason for my daughter’s heart to stop. Therefore, we knew from the get-go that termination was not an option. She agreed. She said plain as day that that would not have been what God would have wanted and was completely in agreement w/ my decision. I know that I have made the right decision, it is just wonderful to hear others agree w/ God's word.

Needless to say I was in tears, which doesn't happen too too often, especially when talking to people I do not know...but lately as we approach the "end" of the pregnancy I guess things are just hitting me more than they have. I told the woman that I was just afraid that I wouldn't be able to go home today and that I was not ready for the pregnancy to be over yet. I have to say that I probably wasn't the only one choked up in that waiting room this morning.

The nurse called me to come back to an exam room as soon as she saw the tears. She put me on the monitor right away only to see that I was contracting about every 5 minutes. Again more tears! I just kept praying that God would allow us more time. More time w/ hopes to make it till March 17th. I have to say that I was even begging and pleading w/ God today. I then began to text message my 50 some prayer warriors. Vinnie questioned why I needed my cell phone and through the tears I let him know that I had to get others involved in prayer on my behalf.

The doctor came in and advised that I would be sent up to labor and delivery for more monitoring, given some fluids, meds to halt the contractions (if necessary and as long as there was no changes to my cervix) and then we would go from there. If I was dilated at all or if the fluids/meds didn't settle my uterus then it was likely that we were going to meet Eva today. Can I just say more tears...This was the doctor of my choice, the one I like the most...who smiled like he cared (I know he does) and wiped my tears from my face w/ his thumb! Too sweet!

Labor and delivery...

My cervix was checked shortly after arrival and I am pleased to say it was still long and closed! Answered prayer!!! I begged to not have to get an IV and pleaded to just be able to intake fluids on my own...yeah, that didn't happen (I hate Iv's). The resident was fearful that I would need to go back for a c-section today so an IV would be necessary, not to mention that this also meant no food. Can I just express to y'all how hungry I was!!!

So, after almost two bags of fluids and urinating 3+ time in 2-3 hours...still contracting but definitely slowed down to more like 10 minutes apart...my cervix was checked again and again, it was long and closed! PRAISE GOD! Not to mention how we (me and Eva) heard that doctor Golde was on the schedule this afternoon/evening (he is the one from a previous post who told me that if I didn't make it mid-way through my third trimester or full term that my baby was going to DIE). Therefore, I think that even if my cervix was slightly opened/dilated prior to being check it CLOSED once hearing who was on the schedule! LOL! I have said it before and I will say it again...I'd rather deliver Eva myself, in my van, on the side of the parkway, at 4am than to have Dr. Golde touch me. (I don't really mean this nor do I want this to happen...but I really don't care for this guy at all what so ever). And it's likely that Vinnie might knock him out (Vinnie has yet to meet him)!

So after 5 some hours we were homeward bound! Thank you JESUS! I couldn't wait to eat and to be in my own bed! We got home, I ate and laid down. I passed out till like 9pm tonight, hence the reason I am wide-awake now. It is obvious that I will be on my back for the next 3 weeks or as long as possible. I have a difficult time doing just that so please pray that others will somehow someway accomplish things in my household.

Vinnie has been sick for several days which dampers things a bit. Mya is coughing more and more which again doesn't help the current situation, as I can't go very far to try and stay germ free.

Adding to my prayer requests from yesterday...

Praying for Vinnie's health and Mya's too.

Praying for Mya when it comes to school. If it is not one thing it is another. Still having difficulties, which make me feel like a failing parent and as if I am doing something wrong.

Praying that our finances will remain consistent. (Being that I am on leave of absence I have just a portion of my regular pay coming in. I am thankful that it is something because something is more than nothing...but Vinnie is now laid off for at least 30 days - which could be a blessing in disguise being that he got sick the same day and I really need his help around here - but we were not expecting such to happen and I would have rather had him home closer to Eva's expected date of arrival than now - he is to be going back likely the Monday after our scheduled delivery date - but it would have been nice for the 30 days to begin the day she is born - as I said this could be a blessing in itself though).

Praying for 3 more weeks!

Praising God for Eva's rambunctious activity today! She has been constantly reminding me that she is here and doing well. Her heart rate remained regular and steady throughout the contractions and her movement is even more abundant now than ever! Loving every minute of it! I love spending quiet time w/ her right now!

I am going to lay back down. Trying to get comfortable and remain comfortable for now.

Thank you again!

Love, Chrissy